on songwriting

writer's block is starting to set in for the first time in almost 6 months and panic lead to a cigarette break which lead to me realizing that when i can't write anything, it's because i'm not being honest with myself about my state of mind, of being.

i'm ignoring responsibility. i'm ignoring heartbreak. i'm ignoring possibility. i'm ignoring disappointment. i'm ignoring failure. i'm ignoring success (towards progress and vice versa).

ignorance has left me in limbo and i think that's all writer's block is; self defeat before a concrete thought is formed.

does that make sense? hmm... shut it down.

but maybe i deserve that for a little bit. well, at least it's a good excuse to smoke a few more and drink a few more before blindly passing out on the deck.